Friday, November 28, 2008

Giving Thanks...

My thoughts are probably in the same place as many of yours right now and that is reflecting on the many blessings that take place in my life daily. It's sad that we live in a world where many of us pray for miracles and then when things turn out okay we breath a great sigh of relief and say to God, "Oh, never mind, I figured it out." With the miracles around us, how can we not see the hand of God in our lives and see his great mercy and love for us? I hope that during this great Thanksgiving Season and going on into the Holidays that we will remember who is directing our lives and working for our good.

I'm thankful for wonderful family and friends and for the blessing that they are in my life. I am also thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who blesses me daily. My wish for each of you this season is to take a moment to reflect on your own lives and recognize the goodness that is there and to give thanks where it is due by getting on your knees.

Happy Thanksgiving and Happy Holidays!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Being Good...

It's all that matters.

It's so easy to get caught up in feeling that something is very important when in fact it is only a smoke screen. Feeling that the image you project to others is important is faulty logic, but it's amazing how at the time it gives you a false sense that you are indeed pulled together and the world is right. In truth, your reality is hidden and before you know it you can't remember what was ever important to you. I know that people who care about me are here for me and I should have leant more on you for support when inside I was falling apart.

I love my family and friends and I'm thankful for each of you. Please be good. Do good for others. Leave your mark on this world and know that it is a good one. Because at the end of the day, being good is all that matters.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Kai

It's taken me a week to get this posted, but here's the latest on Kai. Last week we had Kai's latest CT scan and full body x-rays. After 9 months of chemo we thought it would be fairly routine and we'd get more of the same news. Instead, we found a new boney lesion on Kai's skull. Luckily it is about a quarter of the size of the other two that he had before.
So, here's the plan. Normally we do the scan and x-rays every 3 months, but this time we're moving it up and will do an x-ray of his head in 6 weeks (5 weeks from now). If it's the same or healing then we keep going with chemo as it is now. If it's larger, then we will do all of the x-rays and CT scan again to see if there is anything else. If there isn't, then the neurosurgeon will just go in and basically scoop it out. If something else does show up then we have to change what we are doing completely.
If you followed all of that, as you can see there are a lot of options for what could happen at this point so I'm doing my best to just focus and not worry.
I'm really down with this latest news and I'm finding it really hard to be positive at all. Life seems overwhelming so I'm praying that something good can happen soon. I need it! Please keep our family in your prayers.

The Family

The Family
Summer 2008